Sunday, April 13, 2014

Say this, a Recall?

And so we talked all night about the rest of our lives
Where we're gonna be when we turn 25
I keep thinking times will never change
Keep on thinking things will always be the same
But when we leave this year we won't be coming back
No more hanging out cause we're on a different track
And if you got something that you need to say
You better say it right now cause you don't have another day
Cause we're moving on and we can't slow down
These memories are playing like a film without sound
And I keep thinking of that night in June
I didn't know much of love
But it came too soon
And there was me and you
And then we got real blue
Stay at home talking on the telephone
And we would get so excited and we'd get so scared
Laughing at ourselves thinking life's not fair
And this is how it feels

As we go on
We remember
All the times we
Had together
And as our lives change
Come whatever
We will still be
Friends Forever

So if we get the big jobs
And we make the big money
When we look back now
Will our jokes still be funny?
Will we still remember everything we learned in school?
Still be trying to break every single rule
Will little brainy Bobby be the stockbroker man?
Can Heather find a job that won't interfere with her tan?
I keep, keep thinking that it's not goodbye
Keep on thinking it's a time to fly
And this is how it feels

[Repeat 1]

La, la, la, la:
Yeah, yeah, yeah
La, la, la, la:
We will still be friends forever

Will we think about tomorrow like we think about now?
Can we survive it out there?
Can we make it somehow?
I guess I thought that this would never end
And suddenly it's like we're women and men
Will the past be a shadow that will follow us around?
Will these memories fade when I leave this town
I keep, keep thinking that it's not goodbye
Keep on thinking it's a time to fly

[Repeat 1 (3x)]

Yes that's song Friends Forever from Vitamin C. This song maybe not really our song, but when I listen to this just make me remember you. 

I know everything will happen like this, whether it take short or long time. And I know that I will be the one who ruin it. I know that we can't bring our past. I know everything will change. I know..
One thing that I just knew is this feeling. I finally reached moment where I miss you, but not that actually missing you. 

I'm not saying that I regret what I said last time to you, well.. not at all. I was so relief to show my true self, while in other side of my heart I cursed myself, much. At this moment, there are so many things I wanna regret about. A moment we met, shared stories, took a walk together. Why you came to me? And why I opened my hands to you? Why ended like this? Why you so clueless about my cruel-self? Why I had to be so mean to you?

I'm not asking you to back, and (I know) you won't get me back again. We had big gap to each other, but please not far as stranger. You're standing across me, we faced back each other, I don't mind. 
If you greet me first, I will greet you back with smile. Yes, smile. Just smile, I'm not giving more. Because I'm afraid if I give you much, I will give everything to you, give black ink to your page of life, ruin your all colourful day. 
Or I will greet you if we meet, but I'm fine if you not greet me back. I made you dissapointed, however I know that you're smart enough to think how bad to hate people and have any revenge on me. 

Hey, friend.. Friendship doesn't have expired date like foods in your fridge, because friendship is priceless, doesn't have any exact price like clothes in your wardrobe. Well, people fit to each other. But there are time, place, and fate, which make people mistaken. People fit each other, but when time has not arrive yet, one person can leave first because don't have patience enough. People fit each other, but where we stand is not good enough, one person can leave another one because don't have any will to make it better.
I'm that one. 

Sorry for being immature one, and thank you for being one of many lessons in my life which tell me to be mature enough to face the world. Not just to pass every risks, but to not being the risk of other's life.

using 'You' not 'Her' because (if possible, or if this really better to you know) maybe you'll read. 
truly miss you, may Allah bless you, seseorang yang aku kenal.