Wednesday, October 15, 2014

Independent Girl

Independent girl cannot wrong. She knows what best for her. She knows which one that she should choose. She loves herself. She loves her world. She loves everyone cause she proves hate is useless.

Independent girl cannot depressed. She passes her bad days and grows her hopes. She gives something to another cause with giving she never be poor. She gives her smile, her love, and her pray.
Independent girl never alone. She walks everywhere by herself cause she wants meet someone new. She travels the world cause she wants share anything to everyone.

Independent girl never bored. She thanks to God everyday. She plants flowers and feeds animals. She is happy if rain goes down so she cuddles with someone she loves and talks all night. She is glad if sun shines so bright so she rides bicycle with someone that she never forget and go picnic on green grass.

Independent girl is enough. She is not too much and she is not less. She is pretty with her way.

Friday, September 26, 2014

Saya Mau Bilang

Bulan menyeruak dari sembunyinya
Purnama indah, beruntung..
Bersamanya juga bintang yang jarang mau bergerombol

Saya mau keluar
Saya mau menembus malam
Padahal tidak tahan dengan si Angin
Padahal kaki meminta istirahat

Akhirnya ego kalah pada raga
Saya berakhir di kasur kamar
Hal biasa bersama lagu-lagu
Tapi pikiran mengawang-awang

Kebiasaan sudah..
Melarutkan rasa di bawah sadar
Menghentikan logika atas nama hal klise
Mengguratkan sebuah wajah di bayangan
Mengandaikan sesuatu fana

Fana tidak pernah sempurna, saya tau
Maka saya selalu bangun
Sadar penuh dengan imaji tadi

Saya memang kaku, juga saya bisa saja menunjukkannya dengan membunuh malu
Berkali-kali mengubur gengsi dan menyesali di akhir hari
Gengsi saya habis, malu saya mengering
Cahaya mata saya memancar, senyum saya banjir
Saya sudah jadi orang yang berbeda, sudah jadi orang yang berbeda dengan yang di kaca
Hanya karena si Pria

Yang suka saya maki di hati karena saya seperti gadis mengiba di depannya
Menuang suratan tersirat dan mengerahkan aksi hanya agar dapat liriknya

Saya tau sekarang
Dia sudah lama pula membalas surat
Tapi saya baru mau sadar dan baru mau membaca saksama
Isinya hampa kata, tidak memuji juga tidak menguji saya
Isinya tidak ada apa-apa, senyumnya tidak hambar tapi juga tidak untuk mengundang
Isinya sederhana, harusnya dengan mudah saya tangkap dan pahami
Dia masih duduk di haltenya dan saya bukan angkutan yang paling cepat serta tepat untuk mencapai destinasinya

Bukan bingung, karena saya tau apa yang saya lakukan
Bukan sia-sia, karena saya tau aksi kemarin-kemarinlah yang bisa membuat saya mau sadar
Bukan menyerah, karena saya masih senang hanya dengan mendengar namanya

Saya masih melewati haltenya
Saya masih membuka pintu dan akan membiarkannya dia naik jika dia tidak punya uang sepeser pun
Saya masih seperti kemarin
Hanya saja, saya berusaha menghargai
Saya berusaha tidak memburu lagi
Saya berusaha jadi sederhana saja,
memberi ketika kamu minta
memuji ketika kamu putus asa
memberi senyum ketika kamu lesu
Saya tau bukan apa-apa
Tapi mungkin bisa jadi sesuatu dari sekian sesuatu yang lainnya di hidupmu walaupun bukan Si Satu buat kamu
Lah. Basi.
Saya mau lebih.
Saya mau kamu. 
Tapi saya bisa apa?
Saya tidak boleh memaksa. 

Sunday, August 24, 2014

A Day

Smile is flowers in spring
All is more than I asked
Now I try,
making some beautiful words
To describe the day, the man, and the bestfriend

Nothing can make me happy like a little bird that cannot wait to make a first fly, nothing..
Now it's a day
Nothing, nothing better than today

When time could really just flies as wind blows
When smile could appear more than I ever thought

Nothing is better..
The way bestfriend could tell everything I wanna tell
The way she could know everything I want

Nothing is better..
The way crush could let my heart beats louder than ever
The way he could make me nervous just with he sees in the eyes

But there is something can make it better than this day,
if they were happy as I am.

Sunday, April 13, 2014

Say this, a Recall?

And so we talked all night about the rest of our lives
Where we're gonna be when we turn 25
I keep thinking times will never change
Keep on thinking things will always be the same
But when we leave this year we won't be coming back
No more hanging out cause we're on a different track
And if you got something that you need to say
You better say it right now cause you don't have another day
Cause we're moving on and we can't slow down
These memories are playing like a film without sound
And I keep thinking of that night in June
I didn't know much of love
But it came too soon
And there was me and you
And then we got real blue
Stay at home talking on the telephone
And we would get so excited and we'd get so scared
Laughing at ourselves thinking life's not fair
And this is how it feels

As we go on
We remember
All the times we
Had together
And as our lives change
Come whatever
We will still be
Friends Forever

So if we get the big jobs
And we make the big money
When we look back now
Will our jokes still be funny?
Will we still remember everything we learned in school?
Still be trying to break every single rule
Will little brainy Bobby be the stockbroker man?
Can Heather find a job that won't interfere with her tan?
I keep, keep thinking that it's not goodbye
Keep on thinking it's a time to fly
And this is how it feels

[Repeat 1]

La, la, la, la:
Yeah, yeah, yeah
La, la, la, la:
We will still be friends forever

Will we think about tomorrow like we think about now?
Can we survive it out there?
Can we make it somehow?
I guess I thought that this would never end
And suddenly it's like we're women and men
Will the past be a shadow that will follow us around?
Will these memories fade when I leave this town
I keep, keep thinking that it's not goodbye
Keep on thinking it's a time to fly

[Repeat 1 (3x)]

Yes that's song Friends Forever from Vitamin C. This song maybe not really our song, but when I listen to this just make me remember you. 

I know everything will happen like this, whether it take short or long time. And I know that I will be the one who ruin it. I know that we can't bring our past. I know everything will change. I know..
One thing that I just knew is this feeling. I finally reached moment where I miss you, but not that actually missing you. 

I'm not saying that I regret what I said last time to you, well.. not at all. I was so relief to show my true self, while in other side of my heart I cursed myself, much. At this moment, there are so many things I wanna regret about. A moment we met, shared stories, took a walk together. Why you came to me? And why I opened my hands to you? Why ended like this? Why you so clueless about my cruel-self? Why I had to be so mean to you?

I'm not asking you to back, and (I know) you won't get me back again. We had big gap to each other, but please not far as stranger. You're standing across me, we faced back each other, I don't mind. 
If you greet me first, I will greet you back with smile. Yes, smile. Just smile, I'm not giving more. Because I'm afraid if I give you much, I will give everything to you, give black ink to your page of life, ruin your all colourful day. 
Or I will greet you if we meet, but I'm fine if you not greet me back. I made you dissapointed, however I know that you're smart enough to think how bad to hate people and have any revenge on me. 

Hey, friend.. Friendship doesn't have expired date like foods in your fridge, because friendship is priceless, doesn't have any exact price like clothes in your wardrobe. Well, people fit to each other. But there are time, place, and fate, which make people mistaken. People fit each other, but when time has not arrive yet, one person can leave first because don't have patience enough. People fit each other, but where we stand is not good enough, one person can leave another one because don't have any will to make it better.
I'm that one. 

Sorry for being immature one, and thank you for being one of many lessons in my life which tell me to be mature enough to face the world. Not just to pass every risks, but to not being the risk of other's life.

using 'You' not 'Her' because (if possible, or if this really better to you know) maybe you'll read. 
truly miss you, may Allah bless you, seseorang yang aku kenal.

Tuesday, April 1, 2014

Short Letter rangkap Greeting Card

This day marked as my sister's day (I shared her blog here anyway, hm iklan). Actually we're not always stick each other. And we usually fight each other (yes, sometimes I yell at her). We never say cute thingy like "I love you", or "I miss you". But she often tell her story, though sometimes I don't really listen. Another time I ask her suggestion, though sometimes she's not helping.
Well.. I just wanna said,  whatever I did to you and whatever you did to me, in the end we both know that we're sisters. So no matter what (actually) we care each other, we support each other, and we send pray each other, right? (Iya aja lah udeeeh..) With different ways and unsaid words, family still the best gift that we got.
Congrats, Allah let you live longer and make it sure that  more flowers will bloom as you go on.
From : Someone not far but (still) cannot get home
To      : Someone who miss me (hahahahahahahahaha)
Oke, gak akan pulang sampe Kak Farha lupa semua kata-kata ini.

Saturday, March 1, 2014


Someone said that being two-faced is not fake, is just being mature. Well, at first I agree. But think twice, I don't get it.

Tonight I learn something, I guess.. Every relationship (friendship, family, couple, or anything), we just need to talk, to be honest, to understand, and to accept. You know what? My friend said that everyone fits each other, just depends how we treat and try to understand that person.

Sunday, January 19, 2014

Unhidden Secret

Seperti gajah di pelupuk mata tidak kelihatan, hal disembunyikan akan terlihat juga.
Toh di depan mata.

Tidak menutup mata sih, tapi menghalanginya dari pandangan. Padahal jujur pada diri sendiri itu bisa bikin ringan. Jujurnya itu loh, susah, takut, gak segampang ngabisin duit.

But someone said, "To start anything is the hardest part, yet 50% of process."
Menjadi dewasa itu mudah dan tidak mudah. Menjadi dewasa itu seru dan repot.
Menjadi dewasa itu enak, bisa membantu daripada dibantu.
Semoga kita adalah orang dewasa.
Dicoba saja:)